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Today was mostly another standard day, dishes, cleaning, reading, chilling. My parents got back from their anniversary trip, so that was good to see them again, I helped my dad fix up the dingy in the water by the dock to our sailboat which was also enjoyable. This particular point is important because it helped me realize exactly how mucy more "in the moment" I am than ever before. I've lived in maine for most of my life, gotten to be around the water and the mossy woods plenty of times, but never before has it looked as pretty as this. I dont think its just the phone, I think younger me probably couldn't appreciate the beauty for a lot of reasons, my ADHD, me just being young, my passion for always having my face in a book. I thought the outside was kind of boring. Then, going into my teenage years, of course my phone usage started to ramp up, leading to me dopamine looping into thinking anything with less than 14 flashing colors was boring. but now, as I've become an adult, and I'm worked so hard at getting off my phone, seeing the water and the rocks and the algae, I feel as if I'm a curious kid again, looking for shrimp in the water and algae spiders on the side of the dock. It's a feeling I cant quite describe, but it feels really really good. I hope once the flip phone happens, this feeling only increases. After that we got my favorite reasturant for dinner! benkay! love that place. Thats about it for today.

Sitting on the little john dock.