What to write what to write.... Today I mostly spent reenforcing good habits, as usual, trying to keep to my routines to keep feeling productive, which has made a huge difference in my life already. Applied for a few more jobs, and had a great moment where I got to sit out in the warm rain on my porch and read, truely a wonderful feeling. I believe I decreased my phone usuage, but I cant be sure. additionally I played a new board game today with Evan! the game was called ruins of arnak, and it was a hell of a lot of set up and rule learning for a 5 turn game. The core concept is actually really interesting, and the number of things you are keeping track of is also much more managable than terraforming mars, but ultimately I only enjoyed it slightly more. Evan won quite handaly, by so much in fact I felt a familiar feeling I thought I had left it behind
that being the feeling of pride in games, frustration that I was losing, even when the stakes were 0, I hadnt felt this way since I was maybe 16? and playing Risk, unlike my younger years, I didn't let it bubbble up and make me upset outwardly, but it was certainly strange to feel again, I'll chock it up to being tired this time, but if it happens again it may warrent further thought. It isn't a nice feeling, and I dont like the thought of being frustrated to lose again, theres just no need. I also tried to speed run minecraft today, speedrun may be a strong term, especially dragging evan along (he is quite good at stratagy, but quite clumsy at movement games) but we made it to full diamond in like an hour, then got some pizza, and now we are on our way to the nether trying to find eyes of ender.
thats all for today, the Roux Institute application move along, as does job applications, one of my applications was viewed today so says indeed.com. hopefully more news soon.
ps I gotta start writing these sooner in the night, when I get tired I get lazy with them